oh, you thought there wasn’t gonna be one this year? GUESS AGAIN!

Two days late for 22 🥳

The age is lowkey sounding serious, which I’m not into but alas here we are. And despite what the world may say, this is NOT my last fun birthday. I feel like I’m officially entering “my 20s” now. This birthday was probably the best college birthday I’ve had so far and reflecting on all the love in my life was so special. This year’s post is a little different from years past. Some lessons are more of just reflections and observations. And not every one has a further explanation to it. No attempts to be more profound than I actually am at the ripe age of 22. As always, thanks for reading 🙂

1. How to look more kindly at my own reflection
2. You have your whole life to get into a routine, college is the time to sometimes step out of one
   • College might be the last time I can wake up at 11am on a Wednesday, go to class, and miss no responsibilities. I am gonna take advantage of that. I have my whole life to get up at 7am, go to the gym, and do “the things I’m supposed to do.” While my google calendar is still my best friend, letting spontaneity run its course has led to the best memories.
3. How to enjoy my own company
4. I’ve never been disliked by someone I want to switch places with
   • coming to this realization also helped me to realize that I don’t want to ever dislike other people… cause then they can say the same about me. #stayhumble
5. To be cringe is to be free
   • and the people that let you do that are the ones you should keep around
6. You actually won’t immediately gain 20 pounds when you stop working out.
   • I haven’t worked out consistently in like 6 months. I’d bet to say I’ve never looked better. It’s all in the confidence.
7. Life is a series of learning and unlearning and undoing and reteaching all the things you thought you once knew
8. You will forever mourn for a past that was once your future.
   • This is lowkey giving ““it’s not what you’ve done but what you do with what you’ve done for others.” But I guess the realization is that time keeps moving and I MISS EVERYTHING!!!
9. The best way to get over a crush is to see who he hangs out with and who he is around them
   • It’s giving BUMMY (new favorite word). Throw some prayers up, it’s getting rough out here.
10. How to simplify my life
    • I hang out with people who want to hang out with me
    • I go to events that I want to go to and don’t go to ones that I don’t
    • I am apart of things that make me feel joyful and alive and don’t force myself to do things I loathe
    • I work hard when it’s necessary and rest when I need to (and can)
11. Kacey Musgrave’s sounds the same live, dancing like a fool might get you on TV, and your hair definitely looks better with a cut more often than two years
12. Networking isn’t that scary. And everyone is “under qualified.”
13. How to let go of a friendship
14. How to slow down and appreciate the current version of myself, I will never have her ever again
15. I don’t know if I can work a job where I have to sit all day
16. Dealing with trauma and breaking generational curses is not for the weak, but good thing you aren’t weak
    • IKTR!
17. How to apologize for my past mistakes
18. How to surround myself with people who make me feel alive, celebrated, and loved
19. Everyone in college is lonelier than you think
    • It’s so interesting to me to see people that I think are like the BESTEST of friends and then they don’t know like basic information about each other. You can have an hour long conversation with someone and never really get to talking about anything. Weird, right?
20. I am so loved!
    • and I think I just forget sometimes, but I’m thankful for the moments where someone does something that reminds me. And I think we all need that because the secret to having a friend is being a friend, and a the hour after a hangout hates to see me coming cause you know I’m drafting that “you are all so special to me. I love you so much.” text message.
21. You should call your parents and your grandparents because they won’t mention it but it actually means a lot to them to hear your voice or when you visit them and they get sad when they don’t hear from you in a while
22. It’s okay…
    • to not be the smartest person in the room, to be wrong, to not have something to say, to not workout, to do the wrong thing, to mess up. If “all you gotta be at 23 is yourself” all I’ve gotta do at 22 is figure out who she is. (CRINGE, okay I’m done)

And the learning never stops! Here’s to 22! To learning more and relearning all these things again!

Love ya,

BYE!